Today is Pentecost.
Those in my congregation know that I get choked up. I never see it coming and it always humbles and often embarrasses me. Sometimes this happens during sermons or the reading of the Gospel. Today it happened when I prayed Kneeling Vespers. Kneeling Vespers is about 45 minutes long and its main feature is everyone kneeling while the priest, also kneeling and facing the congregation (both of which are unusual in the Orthodox Church) prays 7 long prayers. I pray these prayers every year but I do not review the prayers before I pray them aloud. So the last time I prayed them was 365 days ago. They are so personal and beautiful.
This is the part that got me today:
For thou art the Brightness of the Father, the express Image, inalterable and immovable, of his essence and nature, the Fountain of wisdom and grace. Open thou also the lips of me, the sinner, and teach me how I ought and for what I must pray. For thou knowest the multitude of my sins, but thy compassion shall overcome the enormity thereof. For lo, in fear I stand before thee; into the sea of thy mercy have I cast the desperation of my soul. Govern my life, thou that governest all creation with thy wisdom, O tranquil Haven of the storm-tossed, and make known to me wherein I should walk.